trip to kk sabah

di Suria Sabah

Trip to KK sabah
one word : AWESOME!
rasanya saya jatuh cinta dengan KK
dengan lautnya yang biru dan tenang
dengan penduduk nya yang sopan dan baik

kalau banding sibu
ciss...garang betul la orang sibu
di kk : aunty2 saya yang bershoping sampai menumbangkan rak baju
pun orang  KK tak marah

kalau di sibu
mesti dah kena sumpah
saya tak tahu la apa budaya orang sibu
ganas.............

sangat terkejut dengan budaya dan layanan orang sabah
sopan dan baik
zzzzzzzzzz....

nanti saya update lagi..cekikdaud

Shoes talk!

haa...ho..ho...ho helooo
ingat pillow talk aja ke ada
shoes talk pun ada
apa ceta pula ni?

Saya obsesi pada K.A.S.U.T
saya cuba bertaubat
tapi tak boleh dong!

Masa masih menuntut di U dulu
mampu memiliki ni aja
tapi bila dah keja saya tak berani cakap dah..

kalau masih sekolah dulu, nak beli barang kena tengok dulu harga
tapi bila dah keja
main angkat aje
tak tengok harga pun
dahsyat tak??

masa kat U dulu

dah zaman keja

boleh jadi kedai kasut

Jika anda sekepala..tolong sharekan the latest kasut yang cantik..hehe:)

Hepi Besday to me :)

beday cake-ada tompok2

simple beday celebration with my family

Once upon a time....
long-long time ago
one small baby girl crying aloud when she enter the world for the first time
SHE expected to be baby a boy..and named Gabriel

Unfortunately, the expectation did not satisfy
due to mom's health condition
the doctor advice her not to pregnant again
as she so obsess to have a son
she neglect the advice completely

on this date
8/12....2am
she safely conceived her little baby girl
and named her as Gloria
a holy name in Bible.....
Gloria elsis deo
"Wishing you be a Princess Purple Blessed and holy birthday today the same as Mamma Mary day "Immaculate Heart"(wishes from FB)

Masa beli kek
cina: brpa tahun
kak:msg me
i reply: 24th
kak: ya ka, bkn 23?
sy:huh...lawak...ingatkan dah 24 years old..hahaha

To all facebook-er who made wishes tq to all
P/S: I just wanted to thank you guys soooo much for all of the birthday wishes!!!! It means the world to me that you all are thinking of me on my special day :)GBU all.

Engagement Day :)

Baju biru itu dia

cantiknya ring

Thousands of glad to you my bestfriend
Finally you found yours Mr. Right :)
Congratulation for both of you on yours Engagement Day!!
5 December 2010.

Our Story............

One day, di perhentian bas
we start to meet and know each others
as time pass by we become more close and closer
until people say that we are siblings
anywhere we go will be always togather-gather
Form 1 until now, our frienships will remain forever and ever.

Climax
This mix Cilanau (Melanau mix  chinese)
Khairunisa Mohd Ridzuan Teo
you are part of my life
you are special in my heart

Flashback to our 1malaysian story

Stereotypes thinking say:
kawan ayah: kenapa kau biar anak kau kawan dengan kawan bertudung? nanti dia juga akan jadi macam itu juga. (very typical thinking orang ni.very racist)

My dad: saya kenal benar anak saya itu.dia tahu membezakan mana yang betul dan mana yang salah.asalkan kita menghormati orang lain dan tidak berprangsaka buruk, maka semua perkara baik akan datang kepada kita.

(bersungguh-sungguh orang tu bercakap ikut suka mulut dia)

saya dapati dia pun mengalami perkara yang sama. di sebelah dia orang juga meragui persahabatan kami. hanya KERANA

i) kami tidak sama bangsa
ii) tidak sama bahasa dan
iii) tidak sama agama

BUT.......
My family know her family well
and her family know my family well
and what we need is ONLY
one word "RESPECT" each other
tanpa hormat menghormati persahabatan kami tidak
kekal seperti sekarang.

Begitulah cerita kami.
sekali lagi saya tumpang gembira
di atas hari bahagia dia
walaupun saya tahu, less night hangout after this..hehe
Congrat..congrat and congrat...senyum sampai gusi:)


-till next time. cekikdaud-

amoy, you mau keja?

lokasi: petang semalam (lingkungan pukul 5pm-6pm)
tempat: pasar betong (sebelah kedai Tai coon)

adegan: mula-mula, saya mencari kedai reload dan..itu dia..sebelah kedai Tai coon

saya: celcom rm10
( sambil menghulurkan rm10 kepada mak cik cina tu, dia pun memberi kad reload berharga rm10 kepada saya dan bertanya..)

Mak cik Cina: ne the chinese? ( dia tanya dalam bahasa Cina)
saya:pulse (yang bermaksud bukan)

( saya faham juga la sikit-sikit bahasa cina. dia tanya saya cina ka bukan, saya pun jawab bukan la...then...)

MCC: amoy mau keja ka? ( sila baca dengan pelat chinese)

saya: huh?? ( dengan muka separuh blur,mata terbeliak dan mulut ternganga)

bila dia tengok saya blur, dia tanya lagi...
mcc: sudah ada keja ye?

saya: ha..ya..

mcc: sini ada kosong kalau mau keja. kalau ada kawan mau keja, lu datang kasih tahu saya.

saya: ok
dan saya terus berlalu dari tempat tu...

Moral of the story: pertama: Saya dah biasa kalau orang cakap saya ni macam cina sikit muka.and the truth is i hate my sepet eyes. kalau boleh mahu mata besar dan bulat macam Dynas. kedua: rezeki murah sebab di tawarkan bekerja tanpa di tanya sebagai salesgirl jual kad reload...huhu-mungkin dia tengok saya macam budak-budak dan dia rasa layak kot. Ketiga: itulah pengalaman yang seronok berjalan di pekan betong....hahaha...till next time-cekikdaud dulu.

books and my december

Hello, i am back. And now i’m addicted to read novels. Frankly speaking, i’m not bookworm, just when i’m bored i will fulfill my precious time with something that can give input to my brain. Life sofarsogood. Currently reading new moon by Stephanie Meyer. She such a great writer, and all of all, she is one of my favourite writer.yes, she is! If you loike the vampire stuff, so as hell you will be the big fan of this kind of story. And i admit, i am one of them.

I had watched the film Twilight, new moon, Eclipse and breaking dawn....BUT sense of watching and reading obviously differ. The way you want to interpret it. It is very very different. When i’m reading the story, i will forget about this world and go into another world. Boleh jer terbawa-bawa dalam mimpi dan menjadi sebahagian daripada watak cerita ini.kui..kui...

The romance in this story made another version of Romeo and Juliet (just in another different way). More exciting! Can you imagine you will fall in love with someone that anytime can kill you and sucking your blood!....sound horrible...tapi cerita dia tak da lah macam itu.

“These violent delights have violent ends

And in their triumph die, like fire and powder,

Which, as they kiss, consume.”

( Romeo and Juliet, Act II, Scene VI)

Sad right?...sedih..sedih..sedih...(upin&ipin)

Selain dia, ada lagi seorang writer yang never fail to make me cry when reading her story. She is Jodi Picoult. One of her story  “My sister’s keeper”...sumpah...cerita ini memang sedih...saya baca masa saya di universiti dulu, time tu masih student lagi...jangan tak percaya, saya pergi kuliah dengan mata yang bengkak, sebab menangis baca cerita tu. Masa saya menonton cerita dia tak lah sedih sangat, tapi bila baca, i’m speechless and hardly breath!.... “she is strong little girl that fighting with her sickness”

Tapi dalam banyak-banyak writer ni....paling...paling saya minat tak lain tak bukan Cecelia Ahern. She is wonderful and really awesome writer. Tapi buku dia mahal sangat, dulu mungkin saya tak mampu miliki, tapi dah keja ni..i willingly spend my money on her stories..betul ni.

Dulu saya sempat baca cerita dia P/s: I love you. Itu pun pinjam dari my rumate. Memang best giler! Sangat..sangat romantik! Dan saya ingin mengumpul kesemua novel beliau.

Kalau Malaysian writer, saya suka banyak juga, tapi antara yang terpilih Dr.Lee Su Kim (lecturer UKM), antara cerita dia yang pernah saya baca “ A Nyonya in Texas”.....saya boleh tergolek jatuh dari katil kalau baca cerita dia. She have sense of Humor and very funny kind of writing...memang sesangat lucu!

Itu saja updated dari saya. 8/12 coming soon....and it is my day!....ok la..cekikdaud dulu yer..till next time-

november

deleting my previous post my readers,
because i believe cursing in not good
after reading 24 hours with 24 boxes of happiness
i wanted to fill in my 24 hours with 24 boxes of happiness.

current activity on this semester break
"Jadi Pengawas Spm di Smk Kedit"
( Buhsan tau)

k la, updated myself and this blog later..later.
till next time-cekikdaud dulok..

my house at betong

ok tak?
ini lah rumah saya di betong
ada 4 bilik
3 tandas
ruang tamu pun besar
sangat memuaskan
hati
baru tadi pasang langsir baru
letih kemas rumah
sila zasss...gambar-gambar rumah sayer..hehe

ni ruang tamu

tu la langsir baru: maroon

meja makan

dapur

bilik tidow

k la..ini saja dari saya
till next time-

saya ada anak-10 0rang

percayalah keja guru bukan setakat mengajar di bilik darjah saja
bila keluar je dari kelas....ada banyak kerja lain yang menunggu......

saya diberi 10 orang anak
mereka dikenali sebagai anak homeroom
mereka diletakkan di bawah jagaan saya
dari form 1 sampai la diaorang form 5 nanti

*ini adalah sebahagian polisi di mrsm
setiap guru diwajibkan mempunyai anak homeroom masing2
kiranya seperti keluarga angkat la...

saya tidak tahu sama ada saya boleh jadi ibu yang penyayang
they call me mummy..heee
bila mereka bertelingkah bolehkah saya jadi ibu yang adil?
bukan senang keja ni

anak homeroom kita adalah di bawah jagaan kita
kita kena ketahui perkembangan pelajaran mereka
pngk mereka ok ka x?
ada masalah lain yang menggangu
semua tu kita sebagai ibu kena ketahui

masalah kesihatan mereka
keperluan mereka*seperti ambil duit untuk mereka apabila family mereka kirim duit
banyak lagi la....

ini adalah sebahagian daripada keja saya sebagai seorang pendidik
bukan senang nak mendidik anak orang
kita kena cek diri dulu sebelum mendidik orang lain.

apa pun, saya suka bila di panggil "mummy"
hee....introducing my children!
they are sweet and adorable...

 

inilah gambar anak-anak ku tersayang

soalan cepumas mereka"mummy, bila lagi dapat daddy?"

ceh...apa la

tanya ni pula...

k la..till next time-cekikdaud

saya yang menurut perintah!

ketika mata x hengin nak tido
baik saya menulis secebis perjalanan hidup yang saya lalui baru-baru ini
setelah diserapkan tetap bekerja sebagai Pegawai pendidikan siswazah Mara di MRSM betong ataupun cikgu di Maktab rendah sains mara
ada beberapa perkara yang perlu dilakukan
antaranya:

i)membuat medical check up di klinik
sangat letih owkay, habis jer mengajar terus pergi klinik dan medical check up
dah la menunggau keputusan selama tiga jam di klinik
check x-ray, urine test, mata, semua lah-alah macam mula2 kita nak masuk U dulu tu ha..syukurlah semua negative-maknanya semua sihat la dan layak dilantik bekerja
lepas tu

ii)kena buat surat sumpah di pejabat daerah berdekatan
syukur baru tadi dah bersumpah di mahkamah betong
pegawai tadbir tu macam tak percaya aje aku ni 23 taun. mentang2 lah aku kecik..maybe dia tak percaya kot aku ni cikgu

conversation:
Pegawai tadbir: 23 years old isn't it?
me: yup..
Pt: u look so young, anyway congratulations and selamat bertugas.
me: tq

dalam masa tu sempat lagi aku nengok nama2 pegawai tadbir yang ada
ada la terjumpa satu nama yang pelik

Friday anak Belik
Pegawai Tadbir

peh, pelik giler nama dia...dah la friday (jumaat) belik (dalam bahasa iban belik tu sama maksud dengan bodoh)
pelik tak nama dia
dalam hati sempat aku ketawa..heehehehee
tapi dia berpangkat pegawai tadbir tau,...ha ..jangan main2
aku rasa adik2 dia mesti monday, tuesday..and so on..wakaka...just kidding :)

then
iii) kena istiharkan harta
ceh, macam la aku ada sangat harta ni...

iv) banyak lagi lah borang2 kena isi
dan sebagainya

berita baik tadi dengar bajet 2011..dapat juga bonus rm500...ok la
dan pembentangan tentang beli rumah..i like
taun depan ni nak beli rumah la
tak pun proton inspira...wah...

ok la cekikdaud..esok ada sekolah ganti
till next time-dada

time and talk

What will u say when...(kata kau!) When u are kid.. You will only think of how to play hard So simple, no worries Just do the best to be happy ever (Soalan: berapa banyak mainan mak ayah awak beli untuk awak?) When you started enter school (kindergarten).. You will start to received and saved all the data that you get and learned from your parents, family members, relatives and all the people surround you ( itu pun kalau ada yang sempat tadika, sebab sesetengah orang itu tidak sempat. Sebab=masa dia tadika Jipun attack Malaya) (soalan: tadi kat sekul cikgu ajar apa?)

When you enter primary school... Live would be, go to school, back from school Doing homework, eat and play (soalan: kerja rumah dah siap?) When you enter secondary school Life would be change a bit Where you start to dream about having bf/gf Standard 1 to 3 would be still ‘love-monkey’=cinta monyet And then 4 to 5 would be more serious Some of my friend getting married Some of them further study To matriculation or form 6 Then some of them would get a job Some of them going to overseas And navigate our own life (Soalan: lepas ni awak nak buat apa? Sambung belajar ka kawin?)

Standard 6, i would say you will seriously involved in very the serious relationship I would say here, you will never forget the memories Bitter-sweet all will remain forever (Soalan: awak dapat masuk university mana?) And then, the very climax mark in your life would be ~University life~ This memory would shape your life You will start to dream of having husband And kids (for those yang matang awal la. Tapi kalau saya sori la...) (Soalan: selepas konvo: awak dah dapat keja ker? Kat mana?)

Then.all of all.working life (to make your dream at university come true), when you start to collect treasures and will start to think of all this things: (debts, money, problems, cars, houses, husband, kids, responsibility, burdens, stresses, life and so on)

Then, get married..and having kids (Soalan: Berapa orang dah anak awak?) Then, we started to talk about our childrens..bla..bla.. Time flies, we getting older And we will say “berapa orang dah cucu awak?” What life can gives to us as we grow older and aged We will talk and having perspectives According to our age and time See how time change the topic that we would talk about

I am officially graduate

Finally, i am officially graduate on 8th August 2010

Feel like, it’s happen Just Yesterday

Ending my studying phase

This is the moment where everybody dream to achieve in their life

But there will be another phase of life waiting for me

A big thank to family members, relatives, lectures, teachers, friends and to those who knowing me, thank you for the supports and efforts.

Congratulations to all friends and coursemates!!

Keep
your dreams alive. Understand to achieve anything requires faith and
belief in yourself, vision, hard work, determination, and dedication.
Remember all things are possible for those who believe.~Gail Devers~

with love

Wake up in the morning as usual while my hand reaching for my phone under my pillow Oh, it still early 7.45am And there have one message in the inbox. Press the inbox button and read the message from one friend: “One fine day, all of us will get busy with our lives, long working hours, less friends, less meeting, rare calls, no sms, no more late night chatting, won’t have time for ourselves, at such a day you’ll look outside your window and see the good old memories flash you by and you’ll get a smile with a tear in your eyes and you’ll turn back to your work thinkin i wish i could go back...dis msg is to my dear friend who helped to create such memories!:)” All of sudden a white liquids drop from my eyes Sebak...sungguh sebak  I do miss all the memories we used to share together Setiap pelusuk ukm,putrajaya, alamanda, Ane fariz, bagan lalang, sg.gabai, bangi, kajang, kl, panggung wayang (ingat lagi tak, kita semua pernah reserved panggung wayang tu masa tahun baru cina, dialog cerita itu hanya sebut : Banjingan...hahah) dan tempat-tempat yang sekutu dengannya Ini hanya sebahagian, banyak lagi yang tidak termampu di sebutkan.... Kepada kawan-kawan yang di sayangi dan di kasihi Melalui blog ini saya ini mengucapkan ribuan terima kasih Kerana menjadi sebahagaian daripada hidup saya Sekiranya saya pernah melukai secara sengaja atau tidak...maafkan saya Sekiranya kehadiran saya pernah menyusahkan secara sengaja atau tidak...maafkan saya Apa yang saya tahu nilai PERSAHABATAN ini lebih berharga dari emas dan juga permata Wang dan juga ringgit p/s: i love u’ollss my dear friends. i should posted this post early but due to hectic week and convocation week.so i postponed until this date.

The law of NATURE...

the boat and Rejang river

One day

I saw, i heard

about the person

she dead, in front of my house

people are chaos, i can saw lori pertahanan awam in front of their house

people are assemble there

who is she?

I’m not even knowing her

But why i felt like someone saying goodbye

The last goodbye to me

And i remember Emily Dickinson poem

"There's been a Death, in the Opposite House,"

She dead when she is sleeping last night

Some said because of the dengue fever

 She leaves two children

No husband, they’re divorce long time ago

The only thing i know that

She is a mother

Could be a sister to someone

And a daughter

At least she is someone whom precious to the person that loved her

Flashback to the story long time a ago

Where  me and my family sank at Rejang river

When our ‘speedboat’collapse between the ferry and express

When this happen, at that time i’m just 9 years old (Primary three)

What i can remember from this tragedic memory is that

I’m wet, and tali perahu mengheret me to the deeper level

While my dad trying to save me

Luckily dady succeed to cut the tali and saving me

While mumy and my siblings bergayut above the tank

It was Gawai season

And people are drunk and karaoke-ing

Not far from the place that we sank

There a longhouse, it’s called Rumah Ngiring (if i’m not mistaken)

Someone from that house was heard somebody yelling for “help!”

And that sound came from my mom and dad

Who struggle and hoping for someone could heard and help us

Five minutes later, luckily there was a few sampan and people from  the longhouse i mentioned above come and save us

If not because of them from that longhouse saving us

I and my family maybe not alive until this day

Maybe ours destiny not ended there yet

And we still have purposes in this journey of life

What are the related story above to the person that who just dead

What suprise me is that, she also come from that longhouse

Maybe the time i was kid and sank at that river

She and her relatives might be the person that help me and my family

And then i realize she could be the person whom saving my family and i

And i do believe that in this world we’re bound by seven person that might be related to us

And i still remember the theater we had produce when i was in my 2nd years at University

‘6 degree of separations’ is one of the theory which mentioned

We could be related to 7 peoples in this world

And yes, that was so true!

And happen in my life

When mom said to help at least giving her family some money to support the procedure

To bring her back to the longhouse

Even it small at least we could help them

And i pray May the Lord blessed her soul

And R.I.P.

That day, before she depart..it suddenly raining

Somehow showing that she is crying to leave the earth

The house, her sons and her friend there...

I saw the lorry bring her inside

And her coffin

Until it lost from my sight...

On that day, i can’t felt like the earth saying the last goodbye...

And until next time the day we’ll meet again...

terluka..melukai...dan dilukai

Pernahkah anda terluka?
Melukai orang ? atau dilukai
Dalam tiga kategori itu..[di lukai] paling sakit
Sakit.dan.sangat sakit.
Saat aku memijak gelas kaca itu sehingga terputus dua
Darah mengalir laju seperti aliran sungai Batang Rajang
K.e.s.a.k.i.t.a.n tidak terasa bila sudah memang sedia sakit
Hanya terasa kebas sahaja
Bila darah berharga keluar walau setitik dua
Namun kerana betapa penting darah dalam badan
Aku rasa dunia gelap seketika
Tatkala memerhatikan darah di kaki ku menitis satu persatu
Duduk, aku ingin duduk
Kakak mengambilkan kerusi
Sambil membalut luka tadi dengan balutan
Kecoh di sekeliling tidak ku dengari kerana dunia hitam seketika.

kek hari bapa: Happy Father's Day daddy

 Petang itu, sekembali membeli kek Hari Bapa dan wain
Ingatkan nak buat suprise untuk Dady
Tapi inilah yang tersurat bila yang dirancang tidak menjadi yang sepatutnya
Kan Tuhan Maha mengetahui segalanya
Sesudah mengeluarkan gelas dari almari, aku terlupa
Bagaimana boleh terlupa aku tadi meletakkan di situ
Balik-balik ke situ
“chshshhs” bunyi gelas kaca terbelah dua di pijak oleh kaki ku yang mulus
Saat itu
Saat itu rasa sakit kali pertama kaca tercucuk kedalam kaki kanan ku...
Ah, pedih...perit..kacau bilau...bising rumahku....
Dengan kadar segera, setelah kaki ku di balut
Mumy kata pergi ER.
Aku rasa aku tidak dapat jalan, nasib baik aku kecik
Adikku terpaksa mengangkatku untuk turun dari tangga ke kereta dalam kadar seberapa segera

Dalam kereta, aku tidak rasa pening atau mual seperti ketika mula-mula tadi
Malah aku sempat berkata “macam-macam”
Sempat ketawa
Rasa dah tidak sakit lagi tatkala melihat wajah ibu yang risau tahap gaban
Mengelarkan diri si capik “mak aku nyadi si capik....heeheee”-nakal kan

Sesampai di ER, Sibu sarawak
Ok, sakit hati ada, geli hati pun ada
Pernahkah anda merasa “handicap”
Duduk di kerusi roda while every eyes is watching at you and curious to know
“what happen??”
I feel ashamed and pity when they start looking towards me like i’m a murderer or i did something very bad/cruel
Sakit hati sebab-saya tunggu lama walaupun mereka lihat yang kaki saya berbalut dan berdarah
Mereka peduli apa bukan besar pun lukanya
Tapi sakit tau tak!! Apalah guna nama Emergency Room (ER) bila pesakit tidak di layan dalam kadar seberapa pantas
I’m not blaming anybody, adakah simbol a/k memang bermaksud “anda kemudian”
If you in my shoes, i can guarantee you feel the same
Ok, saya nak mengata kakitangan kerajaan memberikan layanan kureng (sori sebab saya rasa marah)
Lama baru la my turn
Itupun luka saya dah tak nak berdarah lagi tau tak!!!

inilah keadaan luka pada hari pertama:jangan tengok kalau geli

Mula-mula dia bagi injektion-inilah paling saya tak suka-suntik2...sakitlah
Masa dressa/pembantu perubatan tu bagi iodin...
Dah la sakit tu memang ada, di tambah garam lagi (anda dapat bayangkan bagaimana rasanya)-Quote: connie remong-
Saya sempat menjerit “mumy!!”
Lepas tu doktor sampai
Dia tanya “are you Fu-chow”-dr. tu speaking kat aku
“nope”-aku balas
He ask again “u want to cut or sew it” if sew it, your skin become not beautiful. Ada parut.better just cut it off, i’m sure new skin will replace the die skin”
Without thinking i reply ok no problem just cut it...masa dia potong aduh (sempat saya nasihatkan “cut it carefully)..rasa jantung gugur ke bumi (hyperbole..la sangat)
Saya jerit lagi mumy tau tak!!
Dressa tu kata, “dah ndai nyak mumy2 gik, dah ambis..manja mai”-dalam hati “baru di nemu”
Then dia balut, ok, tunggu ambik ubat lagi
Sebab saya tak nak rasa kurang upaya duduk di kerusi beroda itu saya pun angkat
Sanggup saya berjalan sebelah kaki tanpa ada selipar
Sebab selipar saya yang sebelah lagi tinggal di kereta
Saya rela
Daripada duduk di kerusi itu
Saya tak sanggup!

Lama untuk luka sekecil itu untuk sembuh
Saya bernasib baik sebab kaca itu tidak memutuskan 3 urat di kaki saya
Doktor kata sikit lagi kena urat
Saya tak tahu berapa lagi sikit itu
Nasib baik malaikat melindungi
Jika tidak tentu lebih payah untuk sembuh
Namun saya tidak kata luka boleh sembuh begitu cepat
Pada hari kedua dan ketiga dan seterusnya kesakitan masih terasa
Ini luka yang kita nampak
Bagaimana dengan luka di hati yang kita tidak nampak??
“it’s keep keep bleeding, and bleeding”
Ini lagi payah untuk sembuh, sebab-ianya tidak di suntik, di beri iodin, tidak potong isi yang tidak berguna-malah kedalaman luka itu pun kita tak nampak
Bila ada luka kena hati-hati tidak boleh kena air-tidak boleh makan itu ini
Nanti kalau luka melarat bernanah itu lagi payah-payah untuk dirawat

sebelum bersalin kulit baru kenalah ada satu lapisan macam ini

3 minggu mungkin juga tidak cukup masa untuk sembuh pun
Malah makin mahu sembuh masih ada lapisan baru
Betul la hanya masa yang berkuasa untuk menyembuhkan
Tapi apakah sembuh sepenuhnya?
Atau masih bersisa parut yang tinggal
Aku merasakan mungkin begitulah juga luka yang di namakan “sakit hati”
Sakit yang kita tidak nampak adalah terbukti lebih teruk dari yang kita nampak dari mata kasar
Walau apa pun itu kan semua lumrah.
Tapi kes saya di atas adalah “malang tidak berbau”
Sebab malang kan selalu mandi, macam mana malang nak berbau..kan.logik juga

Syukurlah sekarang beransur pulih kembali

hampir sembuh sudah, harap2 tidak berparut

 
P/s: Jika anda pernah melukai orang, ingatlah seperti Rossa kata: “Hati yang kau lukai.”
Maaflah saya bukan bagi nasihat atau menghakimi sapa-sapa di sini, Cuma apa yang saya lalui semasa kaki saya tersusuk kaca.lalu saya kaitkan dengan sakit hati yang dilukai lebih kurang sama rasa macam kaki saya itu kot.kepada pembaca salam hormat dan sejahtera.

tips for career success

Get ahead, sell yourself. (Part 1)

Conventional wisdom dictates that if you work hard and show competence on the job, career success will inevitably come your way. But experts say you may have a long wait coming. Keeping your nose to the grindstone may not get you anything except, well, a raw snout. Nowadays, the best strategy for getting ahead is not to wait to be noticed but to deliberately call attention to yourself.
Achieving high visibility is not easy; there’s a very find line separating effective self-promotion and boastfulness. If you can come on too strong and give the impression of bragging, it could backfire. Tooting your own horn without sounding offensive is an art, so learn how to hit the right notes:

1. Assert and promote yourself

While you wish the higher-ups would reward their employees solely on merit, the real world doesn’t always work that way. Remember, “the squeaky wheel gets the oil”. Individuals who rewarded often boldly asks for it. If you don’t want to be caught in a freeze frame as everyone zooms by, practice to be assertive and self-advertise. Whenever possible, subtly make it known to your superiors about your progress, successful project or a great presentation. You may find this uncomfortable initially but remember, no one will know about your accomplishments if you don’t broadcast your accomplishments and take credit. Worse, somebody else may even take your credit away.

2. Take a bow

And while you’re at it, learn to accept the kudos that comes your way. Don’t brush them aside with self-deprecating expressions like “oh it was nothing,” or “I’m sure others could have done it just as well.” Your boss might agree with what you say them often enough.

3. Join forces with allies
Of course, you can always rise to the top of corporate ladder on your own. But wouldn’t your climb be swifter and easier with a helping hand or a gentle push? Seek a buddy or a mentor to look after you and support you, someone who will say “that’s a great idea!” when you present your proposal in the next brainstorming meeting. Of course, be sure to reciprocate in kind.


4. Build self confident

It’s difficult to put all your plans in motion if you suffer from low self-esteem. To bolster your self-image, you’ll have to catch negative thoughts that play in mind and replace them with positive statements. If your inner voice insists your opinions are worthless, your work unimportant or that nobody listens to you, muzzle it until it learns to stop saying “bad words.” Teach it to say, “I have something good to offer,” “My thoughts count,” and “I’m impotant.”

words and ways

Twelve ways to succeed:

1. Integrity

Integrity is knowing who you are no matter what life brings your way.

2. Perseverance

If we can bend with the strong winds of life, we will never break.

3. Leadership

Leaders see not only the destination but also the way to the goal.

4. Faith

Faith is knowing that something wonderful might be just around the corner.

5. Resilient

The resilience of the human spirit is proven in the difficulties one overcome.

6. Reputation

A good name, like good will, is attained by many actions but may be lost by one.

7. Belief

In matter of style, swim with the current; in matter of principle, stand like a rock.

8. Change

We learn to welcome change from the example of nature, which recreates itself for every season.

9. Positive

The only impossible journey is the one you never begin.

10.  Silence

You must speak to be heard but sometimes you have to be silent to be appreciated.

11. Determination

Some succeed because they are destined to, but most succeed because they are determined to.

12. Persistence

Persistence is the element of human nature that daily moves us closer to our dreams.

must watch The Back Up Plan

The Back-up Plan is a comedy that explores dating, love, marriage and family in reverse.

After years of dating, Zoe (Jennifer Lopez) has decided waiting for the right one is taking too long. Determined to become a mother, she commits to a plan, makes an appointment and decides to go it alone. That same day, Zoe meets Stan (Alex OLoughlin) a man with real possibilities.

Trying to nurture a budding relationship and hide the early signs of pregnancy becomes a comedy of errors for Zoe and creates confusing signals for Stan. When Zoe nervously reveals the reason for her unpredictable behavior, Stan commits fully and says hes in. Never before has love seen a courtship where a wild night of sex involves three in a bed Stan, Zoe and the ever-present massive pregnancy pillow. Or, where date night consists of being the focal point at a near-strangers water birth which does for kiddie pools what Jaws did for swimming in the ocean. The real pregnancy test comes when both of them realize they really dont know each other outside of hormonal chaos and birth preparations. With the nine month clock ticking, both begin to experience cold feet. Anyone can fall in love, get married and have a baby but doing it backwards in hyper-drive could be proof positive that they were made for each other.

later, if have time, wanna watch this movie.

selamat Hari Gawai Dayak 2010

selamat Hari Gawai Dayak 2010
aku bersampi Gayu Guru Gerai Nyamai
Bulih reta Bulih tengkira
Bulih nama bulih keresa
murah rezeki
(IBAN LANGGUAGE)

Hari Gawai adalah perayaan yang di smabut oleh masyarakat Iban secara khasnya, dan Dayak secara umumnya di Sarawak
Perayaan di sambut bagi mengucap syukur kerana padi telah masak
di samping masa untuk bertemu sanak saudara yang jauh
hanya di sambut setahun sekali
genap 1hb 6 setiap tahun
bagi yang tidak mengetahui perayaan ini
di harap anda akan tahu bahawa Malaysia mempunyai pelbagai kaum,agama dan kebudayaan
sebagaimana Hari Raya di sambut begitulah juga Hari gawai. (it is not the same, but more less the same)

tahun 2010 ini, merupakan tahun yang paling bertuah bagi saya
kerana pada tahun ini saya akan memakai topi idaman semua
topi apa? topi konvo la
di harap pada tahun ini rezeki berbuih seperti semangat padi

P/s:Dengan ini saya mengucapkan selamat Hari Gawai Dayak 2010 kepada yang menyambut.

movie/ TV series

Currently, I am addicted to the series of Chuck and Fringe. To fill my free time, I watching it all day long.

Chuck

Starring:
• Adam Baldwin as Major John Casey
• Joshua Gomez as Morgan Grimes
• Sarah Lancaster as Ellie Bartowski
• Zachary Levi as Chuck Bartowski
• Yvonne Strahovski as Sarah Walker

Chuck' Synopsis:

This dramedy centers around a computer geek named Chuck Bartowski who becomes the CIA's most important agent when he accidentally opens a top-secret email full of government secrets, which somehow downloads into his brain. Can the CIA protect him from terrorists before they can access the tremendous amount of government knowledge from Chuck's brain?

I wish to meet someone like Chuck Bartowski characteristic; he is so loyal and kind too. Life as a spy looks like challenger and fun. The world's nerdiest secret agent is back! Executive producer Josh Schwartz ("Gossip Girl," "The O.C.") and executive producer-director McG ("Charlie's Angels," "We Are Marshall") team up again to bring back the one hour action-comedy series about Chuck Bartowski (Zachary Levi, "Less Than Perfect") -- a computer geek who is catapulted into a new career as the government's most vital secret agent.

When Chuck opens an e-mail subliminally encoded with government secrets, he unwittingly downloads an entire server of sensitive data into his brain. Now, the fate of the world lies in the unlikely hands of a guy who works at a Buy More Electronics store. Instead of fighting computer viruses, he must now confront assassins and international terrorists.
With the government's most precious secrets in Chuck's head, Major John Casey (Adam Baldwin, "My Bodyguard") of the National Security Agency resumes his responsibility of protecting Chuck. Casey's partner is the CIA's top agent (and Chuck's dream girl), Sarah Walker (Yvonne Strahovski, "Gone"). They try to keep him safe by trading in his pocket protector for a bulletproof vest.

Also starring are Joshua Gomez ("Without a Trace") as Morgan Grimes -- Chuck's best buddy, Sarah Lancaster ("What About Brian?") as Chuck's ever-supportive sister Ellie, and Ryan McPartlin ("Living With Fran") as "Captain Awesome," Ellie's fiance. Chuck's Buy More team consists of Big Mike (Mark Christopher Lawrence, "The Pursuit of Happyness") and the Nerd Herd, which includes Lester (Vik Sahay, "Time Bomb"), Jeff (Scott Krinsky, "The O.C.") and Anna (Julia Ling).

P/s: Try to watch it once; you will never want to miss every single episode.

FRINGE

The second series that I watch lately is Fringe. Fringe is a bit mystery story.

Starring:
Anna Torv as Olivia Dunham
Joshua Jackson as Peter Bishop
John Noble as Walter Bishop
Lance Reddick as Phillip Broyles
Kirk Acevedo as Charlie Francis
Mark Valley as John Scott
Blair Brown as Nina Sharp

Fringe Synopsis:

FBI agents Olivia Dunham and Peter Bishop are faced with a rapidly spreading unexplained phenomenon of the threatening kind. In an attempt to stop the spread, they enlist the assistance of Bishop's estranged father, the institutionalized scientist Dr. Walter Bishop.

watching movies can release your stress.

tips-tips membuat duit dengan hanya Ber-blog...

adakah anda tidak percaya?
saya pun baru menceburkan diri dengan dunia blogging
jika anda nak tahu cara
saya ada sedikit tips yang saya tahu dan kongsikan kepada yang belum tahu
yang sudah tahu itu tak apa la...
jadi kepada yang belum tahu anda bolehlah membaca tips ini

• sign up dengan Nuffnang dengan masuk Nuffnang.com.my jika anda ada sekurang-kurangnya 20 visitor sehari ke blog anda
• after that completekan registration, copy and paste HTML code yang ada Ad unit dimana iklan akan disiarkan di situ and automatically it counts your daily statictics jugak
• bagi masa diorg punya team selama seminggu untuk track kau org punya blog,sebelum dorg siarkan iklan
• and at the end of each month, kalau korg punya cash dah sampai Rm50,korg boleh cashout, atau nak simpan terus pun boleh. so that means you can STart Getting Money hanya dengan blogging.

mesti ada yg masih pening macam mana nak letak HTML code tu kan, first sekali,
• kena pergi kat Blog Manager and add a blog
• then pergi dekat Add Ad and pilih dekat mana you wish utk letak(header, sidebar atau between contents)
• kalau rasa nak guna xchange widget pun lagi bagus because leh menambahkan trafik to your blog
sesudah itu, blogging macam biasa, and tunggu iklan tersiar.dekat Blog Manager it is advisable utk letak Ad Preference sebagai Show Global CPC Ads.

pasal glitterati, ko mesti setia pada dorg dengan jangan letak iklan dari syrkt lain macam catcheye kah, advertlet kah. kalao letak tak istimewa lah lagi, tak salah aku, bayaran kalau Glitterati sebulan dh leh receive cheque kalo tak glitterati dalam 2 bulam.and ada lagila disadvantage lain.


kalau nampak iklan, sapa-sapa pun boleh klik, baca saja and dia akan kira through ratio berapa kali ia di klik. nilai campaign tu berbeza-beza.

so kenalah hits banyak /trafik jem gila2 ke blog ko, baru la diorg punya team semenggah sikit nak letak iklan. kalau dah sampai tahap sehari 5,6 ribu, sehari and ada iklan tengah ada kat blog, maka dapatla sikit ya rakan-rakan habuannya.

kalau kau dah tahap blogger terhebat tahap bnyk sangat2 trafik ke blog, ko akan dapat Advertorial di mana ko kena submit entry khas pasal satu2 iklan ni. bayaran dia mmg lah masyuk kot.

ada jugak yang dapat contact via emel from Nuffnang team if ada advertiser yg berminat nak letak iklan for a week ke kat blog ko.

itu saja yg aku tau.
selamat mencuba.

i miss UKM..

Tell me how I miss UKM damn much right now. Maybe it is true; we only realize something that very precious to our life once that thing not belongs to us anymore. Only one month after coming back to my hometown. Yes, undeniable home is sweet home, but then when looking back to those pictures and memories make me longing for my UKM. The fun and laughter that I share with my coursemates, roommates, and bunch of krazy friends, I was miss every single thing that I leave there. Not that I miss the place, but I miss the peoples surrounding me and people whose participate in cheering my life. Even it is sweet and also bitter memories.

Here, I’m coming back to bear commitment and responsibility to make my family proud. Getting what I want in life: good career, buying house and car and having happy family. One of my responsibilities is to give my family comfort shelter for them. I might be small but I have big dream and ambitious. Really sensitive to those person who always busy with others people matter. You know what, no need for you to tell me what to do and what is isn’t. I’m matured enough to think for my own life. Entering adulthood life, for me is very tiring. Very complicated to analyzed and explore. If you noticed every children like to watch cartoon, I always questioning why? Maybe for them, cartoon life just simple as what children thinking. To answer that why adult dislikes watching carton because their thinking is complicated as what they think off.

I no need to explain what bored mean is to you and me. I am very bored right now. No wireless, no facebook, no blogging, I miss my UKM jaring. Tomorrow only I can see my sister broadband. Oh I cannot live without you line/wifi. I need to see the latest vacancies. I needed job. Staying at home and doing nothing makes me felt longing with my life as a student. I miss my busy life. Praying to have a job as soon as possible, so that I not felt unproductive and lazy. Besides, I need money. Wah, sound so materialistic, yes, money <_____________> empty!

I am waiting for convocation days, coming soon this August. Impatient. Without the scroll it is difficult for me to search permanent job, and the busy people will start asking what I am going to do next. I need to prove that I can get a job as soon as I get my scroll/ certificate.

I am bored and created some quote. Read and understand it. It is just for fun..

Story

Every story has it two sides, maybe three or even four. Never believe and heard from one side, you will never know the truth.

Trusted

Never trusted anyone unless you yourself and God, because everybody will say something bad about you from your back.

Quarrel

Putting and hiding everything inside without vomit it to others will lead explosion to the max temperature.

Patient

Patient has its own limit until you can’t bear with it anymore.

Rumors

Rumor make your heart pain because it is lies and slander, don’t ever involve in it or else your life will be suffer.

Mouth

Mouth can be a masterpiece to significant issue but also can destroy others people life. It is tongue fault.

Size

Don’t judge the person by the size, she/he might be small in size but have a big brain to conquer the world.

Money

Money is not priority in life, but every single thing in life need money.